Saturday, April 09, 2005
ProloGue...
Well, welcome to my blog! haha.. its just up, so it'll take a while for me to smoothen it out i guess. anyway, since this is the first post, i'll just share some of my thoughts on something so elusive, yet so simple: Time. (tis kinda hard to put into words, but i'll try.)
'Moments' are kinda interesting.. when it has yet to come, you yearn in anticipation. When it does come, you experience it for yourself, and that decides if everything turns out the way you thought it to. After it goes in the twinkling of an eye, all you are left with are memories, or photos. In other words, inanimate replicas. You cant experience it again, no matter what.
The passage of time is so fascinating. Our lives last nary a century. Hark back to all your old memories. Which of those would you give all to relive? This sounds very cliched, but doesnt time just FLY? The future seems to stretch for eternity, yet the past that was 'future' before is so short; it can probably be summarised in one sentence:
LIFE is a one way street, and you are captive to your decisions.
Like one week before o lvl results were released. It felt so.. surreal? the waiting, the anticipating, and the feeling that you still 'have time la'. Yet, when the day came, it all hit you in a bang. One flash, and everything's over. Your future's sealed, and guessing game's over. magical huh, if u think about it.
16 years seem like nothing now. I still remember the time i set foot on AHS soil, totally unaware of what to expect. My pants were waay above my waist, my socks were *damn* long, and i wore thick golden glases. Muhaha. Also, i looked up to seniors. I saw them as the people who had 'been thru it all'. I sought to learn from them, to ask questions. Even when it came to the location of the Homec room. As the saying goes: 'when in Rome, do as the Romans do.' My how have things changed. Now im the senior?. heheh.
Now that 4 years have flashed by, would i want to change anything? Has my life been led meaningfully? Is life all about 'having fun and living life to its fullest' as everyone knows it? Tis only 4 years. What would i say after 70? Think about it.
Yes, so many cliches and stereotypes exist, yet sadly they are all true. So much time has passed. And while we are still young, we should think what are we gonna do with our future? Everything will come and go. Nothing remains. So what if you are rich at age 90? You work all your life to get where you are, and then you die, taking not a cent with you. Eh?
Why do you cry if you lose something or someone you love? Because they hold in their lifeless shells, which are way past their prime, all your memories, whether good or bad. And you just.. miss them. When they were alive, all the memories you have of them are in 'cold storage', and you think that anytime you can just revive them. yet when they die, all those memories come flooding back. Its this reminiscing that brings the tears out...
Think about it.
-Date of writing, 28/7/04, with recent additions. Copyright 100% John. lol.
jOhn thought at 1:24 PM
